can i have your attention, please?

i know it's been a minute.

actually, it's been more than a minute but i've been busy.
the word "busy" equates to 6 classes, the website (which i'm more or less slacking on), life, unstable situations, and a few days of work every week.

i guess it's a miracle i'm alive.
or not. i guess i'm fucking human and i'm young and i'll have to deal with it.

so...i deal.

there really isn't much on the topic of conversation other than the fact i'm in the library.
you're supposed to be quiet in the library.

and in church.



but not in confessional.
belt your woes, but in a respectable manner, please.

i'm learning the ways of being speaking up lately.
not just because i'm trying to revolt. but because at times, it's best to speak up.

this:



is the way people keep looking at me.
apparently, you're not supposed to have a sense of humor in the library.

summer heights high
is what is making me laugh right now.

blame this bitch.

she's the party responsible.

watch at your leisure.
it will be a good decision.

in the last month or two, i've become that person that broke out of his shell (in some ways or less). this isn't a tale about figuring out who i am or being comfortable in my own skin.

i've owned that shit for far too long.
what i'm getting at is that i've been the person who would just accept things, at times, for what they were. especially personal situation.

whether they be relationships, friendships, common situations in every day banter...etc.

skip to the two minute mark, anything before that is not all that relevant.



"there's a cello in your house now."

that's how i feel about some situations. i feel like making my mark.
or at least letting someone know that i was there.

don't get me wrong. i'm not going to vandalize the home to any person that pisses me off.
i'm just more vocal about things now.

not really sure what has brought it about, but what i've realized is that sitting around and just letting things happen, at times, isn't the best situation to be in.

i'm not saying that you should turn into that guy who tries to control everything.
i mean, you can't take the job of creator.

someone already died for that job position.



that wasn't meant to be blasphemous, unless you wanted it to be.

i'm not suggesting that you try and control every fucking situation.
because that will only make you lose your marbles.

i guess that i'm just saying that speaking up every now and then isn't really that bad.
you'll help people, hurt people, inform people...etc.

just be sure to speak up every now and then.
because you'd be surprised in how much it helps.

true that.
i know this was vague.
but, i have to pee something horrible and my class starts in 15.

until next time
-nick